I Will Not Lose

Have you ever had someone in your family who seems perfectly harmless to everyone else, sweet, innocent, the kind of person that people love, but the moment you're alone with them, something shifts?

Like a switch flips.

Suddenly you're not looking at the same person anymore. You're looking at a wolf that's just been wearing a very convincing sheep's costume.

Everyone else sees an angel. You see something else entirely. The moment the door closes and it's just the two of you, the sweetness disappears and what's left feels nothing like family.

Baking

I love baking. It's like therapy for me besides drawing. I love to feel flour on my palms and I don't mind getting dough underneath my fingernails.

Baking always makes me feel calm and happy. It's rejuvenating in a way that's hard to explain—and there's real satisfaction in it too, especially at the end of the day when I have tried a new technique or created something entirely on my own.

My passion for baking started when I was still a little girl and I would sit at the edge of the kitchen table while my grandmother baked delicious cakes for me. I would pay attention to all the little details that she would make as she baked.

I was amazed by how eggs, milk, sugar, flour and a few other ingredients could create something so delicious. When I was little, I saw it as if it was almost like magic! It's incredible.

Helpless

Halo. I have a good news to share with you. Do you remember my nephew who fell off the stair railing at his school and ended up in a long coma because he fell with his head hitting the floor that caused him to suffer a brain damage? I wrote about him last year. Here, click the flower if you wanna read it: 🌸 

So, he is finally awake from awful trauma. It should be a good news, shouldn't it? Of course me and my family are glad that he's awake from a long sleep. After suffering from a brain damage, he spent two and a half years in a coma before he finally woke up. We never lose hope. In the years that passed, we never gave up on him. We always believed that one day he would wake up and it really happened! But... I somehow feel a little disappointed to see his condition.

Halas

*smiling innocently* 

Halo!! How are you, guys? I hope you are doing okay. 

I know that it has been months since my last update. Like, I promised myself that I would never neglect this blog but I wasn't quite in a good mood (and I still am not in a good mood) after writing about my nephew's fatal accident as it triggered me to have many sad flashbacks about him when he was still able to walk, play football, smile and laugh like there was nothing could stop him from being happy and enjoying his wonderful life.

I find it scary to see how quick life can change. It almost feels like just in a blink of eye your life is totally upside down. I am terribly sad for my nephew's health condition, but his accident also made me realize that I have never felt grateful for having some of the most important things in life; namely family, friends and the most important thing is, my health. Just to think about him not being able to do anything himself makes me realize how precious life really is and we all should be grateful that we are still be able to walk, to do almost everything by ourselves. How precious it is that we can still breathe without ventilator.

I hope you can learn something from my post. Please, please, for your own sake, think wisely before you make any reckless decision. Love yourself, love your life. Think about your family too. I hope you are always in good health❤️

Gesto

Halo! 

Thank you so much for wasting your precious time to read my last post and comment on it, haha. Someone advised me to drink milk instead of water after eating spicy food because water will only increase the burning sensation in your mouth and lips. 

I learned the hard way. But I feel better now. I will never eat spicy food again. I would rather eat nothing than eat spicy food that causes me to suffer later. Bah! 

I vomited so much blood that night. No joke. I turned my bathroom into a crime scene that night.. lol.  

Anyway, I want to share something with you. This is  VERY important. I was browsing through my twitter and saw this video. I don't know whose video this is, but I got it from Extreme Videos.  

I don't know about you, but it's quite disturbing to me. You might think it's just a funny entertaining video, but it's actually not funny at all.  

 Seriously, please DO NOT DO THIS!!!!!!!

 

Let me explain to you why this is not funny or entertaining. My 13-year-old nephew did this at school. He slid down the stair railing like it was a slide, then fell and hit his head on the concrete floor. 

None of his friends or teachers thought he would end up in a long coma, because after he fell, he still looked fine and had no external injuries. He even got up by himself and walked away like nothing had happened. He was in shock from falling from the second floor, of course, but he was still able to speak and walk independently at the time. What they didn't know was that he actually had a cerebral hemorrhage.

Baby

I swear I will never eat spicy food again!!!!!!!

Handmade Notebook

I made my first notebook ever! I followed a simple tutorial video on YouTube and I'm quite happy with the result. What else can I do during this boring self-quarantine though? I need a new small notebook but the malls are close due to the large-scale social restrictions that has been implemented in my city so I can't go anywhere to get a new one.

I'm so happy and so proud of myself that I can make something instead of buying. Everybody knows that buying things is easy, but I think making them yourself is more fun! I think it‘s gonna be a good idea to open my own handmade notebook store, haha. Joke.

I know, this is just a simple notebook. It looks messy. I don't have paper cutting machine, paper trimmer or anything like that. My handmade notebook is so nothing compared to those fancy notebooks you find at any stationery store in the mall, but I'm very proud of myself that I can actually make my own notebook. It's my first time making my own notebook and I'm so happy how it turns out. Hehe.

Oke. That's it for today. I hope you have a good day.